Catatan Konyol Plus Ngaco :: April :: 2008

April 30, 2008

sibuk.. loh

Filed under: All Days Journal
 
Dari kemaren, gw sibuk banget. Palagi karena kemaren listrik dari PLN sempat padam (ih ga lucu banget deh!). Mana hari rabu ini gw musti kelar bikin weekly report yg direvisi ke rincian machining cost aja. Mampus Degjjchhh..!! Mabok berat. Dah gt sampe rumah ujan pulak! namun masih tidak sebegitu deras jadi aman aman saja.
Pagi ini, walo agak telat, hihihii maaf yah bapak manajemen. Laporan gw ‘rada’ ugal-ugalan, abis sistemnya belom memadai sih. Udah gt ditelpon klien soal packaging… maut deh, iya gw kemaren belom sempat improve ke plant.. terpaksa deh, sebel jg sama prod. spv nya kok ga proaktif dan kreatif dikit, kemaren kan udah gw kasih garis besarnya sm drawing kasarnya, eh ini udah tau baloknya ketebalan, ya cari dong yg lebih tipis, ihh jadi sebel. Trus minta orang buat lembur besok jg jadi rame’ MABOK BERAT!!!! Beneran dech gw jadi ngerasa ga enak ke semua orang even the troublemaker wasn’t me but .. still i think that i had my part about it. SEBELLLL… dah gitu ada seseorang yg cuek n ga peduli gitu, ya wis, anggep aja that’s ordinary. GA penting. So ga ada lagi rasa bersalah dan ‘want to know ajah’ feeling ky gitu… Udah ah, besok gw ga tau musti gimana… cape’ dech 
April 29, 2008

Velvet Class Blitz Megaplex

 
Akhirnya, di Indonesia kini ada jg bioskop yang bisa dinikmati sambil tiduran, serasa di rumah.. meski ada jg di sekitar kita pasangan lain yg ga dikenal, mau tau ga’ ??
Klo penasaran pengen nyoba nuansa yg beda ini, langsung aja cabut ke Velvet Class Blitz Megaplex yang saat ini baru ada di Blitz Megaplex Pacific Place lantai delapan. Di dua auditorium Velvet Class, masing-masing tersedia 17 sofa bed yang nyaman. Paling asyik nih klo bawa teman atau pasangan.. Jadi untuk itu tiketnya dijual per bed seharga Rp. 200rb untuk 2 orang.. yah.. kirain bisa lebih dari 2 untuk 1 bed (Dasarr!! abis seru aja nonton film action atau komedi sama temen2 se-genk rasanya ky dirumah ndiri). Oiya, asyiknya lagi nih, tiketnya jg bisa dibeli via online.
Trus fasilitas ruang tunggunya juga OK, ada sebuah lounge dengan bantal dan sofa empuk. Menunggu film diputar, duduk di lounge sambil ngobrol cukup menyenangkan tentunya. Trus saat pintu Velvet Class dibuka, ada petugas Blitz yang siap membantu. Si petugas akan mengeluarkan selimut dari lemari kecil yang ada di bawah sofa bed. Disediakan juga slipper jika Anda ingin pergi ke kamar mandi. (hehehe.. ky di hotel ajah). Di atas sofa bed yang terbuat dari kulit, sudah tersedia beberapa bantal empuk. Setelah merasa nyaman, langsung bersandar saja dan nikmati filmnya.

Find similarity between Never Say Goodbye - Bon Jovi & Trough Her Eyes - Dreamtheater

Filed under: Song to Sing

Tadi pagi gw baru denger albumnya Dreamtheater lagi di kompi kantor, eh .. pas lagu ini gw terhenyak.. mirip banget yah ma lagu dr Bon Jovi.. trus trace back.. dan dapatlah… lagu Trough Her eyes mirip banget rima nadanya sama Never say goodbye..

Oke met nyanyi aja, nih gw kasih liriknya 

"Never Say Goodbye" - BON JOVI released 1987

As I sit in this smokey room
The night about to end
I pass my time with strangers
But this bottle’s my only friend

Remember when we used to park
On Butler Street out in the dark
Remember when we lost the keys
And you lost more than that in my backseat

Remember how we used to talk
About busting out - we’d break their hearts
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin’ on - we got to try
Holdin’ on to never say goodbye

Remember days of skipping school
Racing cars and being cool
With a six pack and the radio
We didn’t need no place to go

Remember at the prom that night
You and me we had a fight
But the band they played our favorite song
And I held you in my arms so strong

We danced so close
We danced so slow
And I swore I’d never let you go
Together - forever

Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
You and me and my old friends
Hoping it would never end
Never say goodbye, never say goodbye
Holdin’ on - we got to try
Holdin’ on to never say goodbye

I guess you’d say we used to talk
About busting out
We’d break their hearts
Together - forever

Music my dream theater
Lyrics by john petrucci - 1999

Nicholas:
She never really had a chance
On that fateful moonlit night
Sacrificed without a fight
A victim of her circumstance

Now that I’ve become aware
And I’ve exposed this tragedy
A sadness grows inside of me
It all seems so unfair

Im learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes

Just beyond the churchyard gates
Where the grass is overgrown
I saw the writing on her stone
I felt like I would suffocate

Inloving memory of our child
So innocent, eyes open wide
I felt so empty as I cried
Like part of me had died

Im learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes

And as her image
Wandered through my head
I wept just like a baby
As I lay awake in bed

And I know what its like
To lose someone you love
And this felt just the same

She wasn’t given any choice
Desperation stole her voice
I’ve been given so much more in life
I’ve got a son, I’ve got a wife

I had to suffer one last time
To grieve for her and say goodbye
Relive the anguish of my past
To find out who I was at last

The door has opened wide
I’m turning with the tide
Looking through her eyes

April 28, 2008

Am I Right?

Filed under: All Days Journal
Sometimes.. oopss.. often likely, I ask myself dunno might be a thousand times this year, about am I right am I doing right or am I choosing the right path/pavement. Yups, its all about you my dear. My ‘hot bloody temper’ just can’t turn into some freezing level when it comes to you.. your optimism n ‘take it easy’ manner. Wah, pokoknya kadang tuh pengen meledak aja, sebel banget mikirin kamu.
Yah mungkin bener klo pria tuh butuh tuk slalu dipercaya, dipahami/diterima semua kemauannya, slalu dihargai even sometimes he’s so rude n cruel, slalu dikagumi walo dah ‘ga berbentuk six pack’, butuh pengakuan buat menyenangkan egonya dan juga butuh dorongan yang lembut dan tidak memaksa seperti kasih sayang ibunya… hiiihhhhh… berat amat yah? tuing tuing pusing tuju keliling… sementara cwe mungkin lebih butuh untuk diperhatiin, dimengerti, dihormati, trus ga diduain duh sedih banget klo cwo nya ga setia suka selingkuh dan menebar franchise dipenjuru dunia, makanya cwe tuh kadang nyebelin untuk urusan pilihan karna cwe suka melakukan polling ga jelas demi mendapatkan pembenaran dan jaminan klo pilihannya ga’ salah. Nah, ini dia salah satu masalah gw sekarang. Bener ga ya.. am I the one for you n u the one for me????

Adele - Chasing Pavement

Filed under: Song to Sing
I’ve made up my mind
don’t need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i’ll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ohhhh ahhhh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there
should i give up
or should i just keep on
chasing, pavements
should i just keep on
chasing, pavements

ooooooor

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

eeyeee

April 26, 2008

Pencarian jati diri

Filed under: Books to Read
Novel dari okke, Indonesian Idle dan Istoria da Paz, cerita yang pertama tentang seorang gadis kutu loncat yang sebenarnya sih panggilan jiwanya tuh menjadi art teacher. Setelah mengalami berbagai peristiwa yang ‘bikin capek’ dan kepentok sana-sini, sedikit mirip nanny diaries kisah ibu dan anak di sini, akhirnya yah dia mendapatkan pekerjaan sebagai guru gambar di sekolah internasional.
Kemudian untuk buku kedua, tentang seseorang yang percaya dengan cinta dan pernikahan, sementara roomate sekaligus cwo-nya seorang gamophobia-takut pernikahan, lalu problem dan trouble maker datang berupa seorang Arimbi penulis buku yang sinis memandang pernikahan, akhirnya Damai/ibu guru Bunga putus dengan Jambrong si gamophobia-man itu dan menemukan cintanya di Timor Leste dengan menjadi guru di sekolah untuk anak-anak yang tinggal di kamp pengungsian dari Timor Leste.
Hmmm… buku yang menarik. 
April 25, 2008

Eleven Minutes - Paulo Coelho

Filed under: Books to Read
Cerita tentang pencarian cinta sejati dan kesucian dari making love. Hmmm
April 24, 2008

buku2 di perpus

Filed under: All Days Journal
kemaren sore, gw pergi ke perpus pinjem buku.. bagus2 dr ninit yunita, okke, paulo coelho dan emha. Bsk deh review smuanya. Cheers!.

Test Pack - Ninit Yunita

Filed under: Books to Read
Buku yang bagus, buat cwe dan buat cwo yang berhati lembut.. ehemm
Ceritanya tentang suami istri psikolog - pengacara yang telah menikah selama 7 tahun dan belom juga dikaruniai anak. Jadi saat sang istri Tata mencapai usia 32 tahun, mulailah dia resah, karena targetnya sih umur 30 dah punya anak , at least, ternyata setelah periksa ke obgin.. taddaaaa…. ditemukan bahwa Rahmat suaminya itu infertil. Trus cerita jadi sedih banget.. meski tidak digambarkan too dramatic tapi diingatkan dengan memori mereka berdua dan kejadian2 surrounding them.. membuat mereka semakin diyakinkan akan perasaan cinta mereka berdua, dan akhirnya mereka mengadopsi seorang anak!. That’s all… yang gw suka… memang dia bukan cinta pertamaku, and i don’t even love @ the first sight, kami tidak pernah saling mengenal saat sma karena dia telah menjadi milik seseorang, tapi kini.. i just can’t look another woman.. just at her.. Hmm… mengingat yang mengarang buku ini cewe jadi agak kurang mungkin buat jadi semaam referensi klo pikiran cwo tuh kaya gitu. Yah, cowo kan mata keranjang.. ordinary people.
 
April 23, 2008

Film2 animasi dari studio Ghibli

Filed under: Movies

gambarnya ajah..

film produksi studio ghibli 

April 22, 2008

Feist - One Evening

Filed under: Song to Sing
 
 
"One Evening"

The evening was long
My guesses were true
You saw me see you
That something you said
The timing was right
The pleasure was mine

The time and the place
The look on your face
Sincerest eyes

If you’re ready or not
The state of our hearts
There’s no time to take

When we started
Both brokenhearted
Not believing
It could begin and end in one evening

We were caught by the light
Held on the day
‘Till it became hours
The minutes went by
The cab is outside
There’s no time to take

When we parted
Moving on
And believing
It could begin and end in one evening

When we started both brokenhearted
Not believing
It could begin and end in one evening
When we parted
Moving on
And believing
It could begin and end in one evening

Episode complete season Six Under Feet (1st-5th season)

Filed under: Movies
 
akhirnya gw copy paste aja dari wikipedia.com
Season 1: 2001
#     Title     Director     Writer     Original airdate
1     "Pilot"      Alan Ball     Alan Ball     June 3, 2001
Nathaniel Fisher dies in a tragic accident; Nate returns home for Christmas.
2     "The Will"      Miguel Arteta     Christian Williams     June 10, 2001
Nathaniel’s will holds surprises; Claire becomes increasingly involved with Gabe; David reunites with his ex-fiancée.
3     "The Foot"      John Patterson     Bruce Eric Kaplan     June 17, 2001
A bakery owner is chopped into several pieces by a dough mixer; Nate convinces the family to sell to Kroehner but then changes his mind.
4     "Familia"      Lisa Cholodenko     Laurence Andries     June 24, 2001
Fisher & Sons arranges a funeral for a gang member; Nate is a suspect in the Fritzen fire; Ruth holds a welcoming dinner for Brenda.
5     "An Open Book"      Kathy Bates     Alan Ball     July 1, 2001
The death of a porno star shocks Ruth when the star’s friends eulogize her; David considers a deaconship.
6     "The Room"      Rodrigo Garcia     Christian Taylor     July 8, 2001
Nate discovers his father had a few skeletons in his closet; David tells it straight to Tracy; Claire meets Billy.
7     "Brotherhood"      Jim McBride     Christian Williams     July 15, 2001
Nate and David are at odds over a funeral for a Gulf War veteran; the family meets Ruth’s boyfriend Hiram.
8     "Crossroads"      Allen Coulter     Laurence Andries     July 22, 2001
Federico considers his options after being offered a job by Kroehner; Nate rents out the slumber room for dance lessons, and has a rather memorable paranoid misadventure involving marijuana.
9     "Life’s Too Short"      Jeremy Podeswa     Christian Taylor     July 29, 2001
Claire reunites with Gabe tragically; David is awkward when he meets Keith at a club; Nate flunks his licensing exam.
10     "The New Person"      Kathy Bates     Bruce Eric Kaplan     August 5, 2001
The Fishers hire a new embalmer, Angela. Ruth goes on a first date with Nikolai. Brenda learns some hidden truths about her brother, Billy.
11     "The Trip"      Michael Engler     Rick Cleveland     August 12, 2001
Nate, David and Brenda attend a funeral directors conference in Las Vegas. Ruth takes a floral arranging class. Claire visits Gabe in a hospital.
12     "A Private Life"      Rodrigo Garcia     Kate Robin     August 19, 2001
The murder of a gay man causes David to question his closeted lifestyle; Brenda has Billy committed; Ruth asks Robbie about his sexuality.
13     "Knock, Knock"      Alan Ball     Alan Ball     August 19, 2001
Tracy Blair arranges a funeral for her aunt; Federico holds a christening party for his son Augusto at the Fisher residence. Brenda visits her brother Billy in the mental hospital.

Season 2: 2002
#     Title     Director     Writer     Original airdate
14     "In the Game"      Rodrigo Garcia     Alan Ball     March 3, 2002
Ruth holds a special dinner in David’s honor; Federico’s sister-in-law arranges a funeral for a young actress.
15     "Out, Out Brief Candle"      Kathy Bates     Christian Williams     March 10, 2002
A college football player dies of heat stroke; Nate battles with keeping his Arteriovenous malformation (AVM) secret; Brenda has dinner with an old friend. The Fishers make an invest on a casket wall to raise profits much to the chagrin of Rico.
16     "The Plan"      Rose Troche     Kate Robin     March 17, 2002
The funeral for a psychic’s husband raises many interesting questions; Ruth attends a self help seminar. As Mrs. Piper transitions her husband into the afterlife, Nathaniel questions his sons on where he may be.
17     "Driving Mr. Mossback"      Michael Cuesta     Rick Cleveland     March 24, 2002
Nate and Claire travel to Seattle to retrieve a body; David babysits for Keith’s niece. Ruth makes amends with people from her past.
18     "The Invisible Woman"      Jeremy Podeswa     Bruce Eric Kaplan     April 1, 2002
Ruth takes an interest in a woman who died without family or friends; Brenda begins writing a novel.
19     "In Place of Anger"      Michael Engler     Christian Taylor     April 8, 2002
Ruth’s sister Sarah visits causing much pain and closure; the Fishers are visited for a second time by Mitzi Dalton-Huntley. Brenda’s sexual addiction worsen when she notices her massage client has an erection and gives him a surprised happy finish without asking first.
20     "Back to the Garden"      Dan Attias     Jill Soloway     April 15, 2002
A Jewish funeral leads Nate to question the Jewish point of view on death with the female Rabbi; Claire visits Aunt Sarah; David begins seeing Keith again.
21     "It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year"      Alan Taylor     Scott Buck     April 21, 2002
Christmas signals Nathaniel’s one year death anniversary causing everyone to reminisce; Margaret has a special present for Brenda. Nikolai is beaten and mugged on Christmas Eve and Claire brings her new boyfriend to dinner. Brenda gets a total stranger to give her a handjob in the middle of department store when no one looks.
22     "Someone Else’s Eyes"      Michael Cuesta     Alan Ball     April 28, 2002
Nate gets a shocking surprise from Lisa; Keith checks up on Karla; Nikolai continues to recuperate at the Fisher’s. Claire is asked to help Billy with a project.
23     "The Secret"      Alan Poul     Bruce Eric Kaplan     May 5, 2002
Karla has a secret that will affect her relationship with Keith and David; Brenda attends a Lifestyle party with Melissa. Claire illegally takes portraits of the deceased for a school project which her brothers soon learn about.
24     "The Liar and the Whore"      Miguel Arteta     Rick Cleveland     May 12, 2002
Vanessa loses her job after being negligent; a lawsuit from a previous client turns out beneficial. Rabbi Ari recommends Nate and Brenda be honest with each other before moving forward with the marriage. Brenda hints two stoners from her street to follow her inside and initiates receiving anal sex from one while the other smokes weed.
25     "I’ll Take You"      Michael Engler     Jill Soloway     May 19, 2002
David and Keith greet a social worker; Federico unexpectedly gains an inheritance; Brenda’s parents remarry; Nate discovers Brenda’s infidelity.
26     "The Last Time"      Alan Ball     Kate Robin     June 2, 2002
Fisher & Sons has an unannounced inspection which turns out positive for Federico; Nate goes under surgery for his AVM as his family anxiously await his outcome.

Season 3: 2003
#     Title     Director     Writer     Original airdate
27     "Perfect Circles"      Rodrigo Garcia     Alan Ball     March 2, 2003
Fisher & Sons is now Fisher & Diaz; David and Keith attend couples’ counseling; Ruth becomes obsessed with her granddaughter.
28     "You Never Know"      Michael Cuesta     Scott Buck     March 9, 2003
David and Rico are at odds over the death of a telemarketer; Lisa & Nate hold a dinner for David & Keith.
29     "The Eye Inside (a.k.a Another Voice)"      Michael Engler     Kate Robin     March 16, 2003
David and Keith go on a much needed vacation; Ruth has fun at the mall with Bettina; Claire breaks up with Phil.
30     "Nobody Sleeps"      Alan Poul     Rick Cleveland, Alan Ball     March 23, 2003
A man arranges an operatic tribute for his gay lover; Lisa arranges a birthday dinner for Ruth. David yearns for the closeness a deceased client had with his lover for his relationship with Keith.
31     "The Trap"      Jeremy Podeswa     Bruce Eric Kaplan     March 31, 2003
Ruth sets ground rules for a new live-in apprentice Arthur; Brenda returns to apologize to Nate; David encounters a face from his past.
32     "Making Love Work"      Kathy Bates     Jill Soloway     April 6, 2003
Nate and Lisa take Maya camping; Ruth enjoys spending time with new friend, Arthur; Claire and David talk about sexuality.
33     "Timing and Space"      Nicole Holofcener     Craig Wright     April 13, 2003
Brenda’s father dies and Nate attends the funeral to Lisa’s chagrin; David and Keith attend a brunch; Claire spends a lot of time with Russell.
34     "Tears, Bones and Desire"      Dan Attias     Nancy Oliver     April 20, 2003
Fisher & Diaz plays home to a deceased patriarch’s children and several wives; Keith gets his revenge on David’s friends. Lisa becomes increasingly curious to learn about the details of Nate’s break-up with Brenda
35     "The Opening"      Karen Moncrieff     Kate Robin     April 28, 2003
Claire, Russell and Billy display their art at an alumni show; Ruth gets close with Arthur; David and Keith set ground rules on threesomes. Nate and Lisa unexpectedly meet up with Brenda at the art show.
36     "Everyone Leaves"      Dan Minahan     Scott Buck     May 4, 2003
Keith confronts his father after his aunt’s funeral; Lisa travels to her sister’s to give herself and Nate much needed relief; Claire gets a confession from Russell and later discusses her flawed relationships with her mother.
37     "Death Works Overtime"      Dan Attias     Rick Cleveland     May 11, 2003
Fisher & Diaz brims with activity after receiving a trio of unrelated deaths; Ruth stays optimistic on Lisa’s whereabouts. Claire is visited by Russell who begs for forgiveness and later finds out important information about her health.
38     "Twilight"      Kathy Bates     Craig Wright     May 18, 2003
A funeral for a serial killer causes Nate to ponder many scenarios on Lisa; Claire has an abortion. Nate temporarily finds relief with the serial killer’s daughter.
39     "I’m Sorry, I’m Lost"      Alan Ball     Jill Soloway     June 1, 2003
Ruth shocks the family with unexpected news; Nate gets unwanted news about Lisa; Brenda goes on a date with a neighbor; David reunites with Keith and Claire meets up with familiar faces during a visit to the afterlife.

Season 4: 2004
#     Title     Director     Writer     Original airdate
40     "Falling into Place"      Michael Cuesta     Craig Wright     June 13, 2004
Nate is at odds with Lisa’s family; David and Keith look for ways to start over; Claire reunites with Russell.
41     "In Case of Rapture"      Dan Attias     Rick Cleveland     June 20, 2004
George’s routines irk Arthur; Brenda slowly plans her relationship with Joe; Keith begins a new job.
42     "Parallel Play"      Jeremy Podeswa     Jill Soloway     June 27, 2004
The Fishers hold a yard sale; David gives Arthur more responsibility. Nate warms up to a divorcee at Maya’s Mommy and Me class.
43     "Can I Come Up Now?"      Dan Minahan     Alan Ball     July 11, 2004
David’s ex-fiancée comes back searching for answers. Nate has a psychic rendezvous. Ruth comes to the bottom of George’s stalker.
44     "That’s My Dog"      Alan Poul     Scott Buck     July 18, 2004
David is taken for a ride by a hitchhiker; Nate attends a bereavement support group; Ruth plays matchmaker to George’s son.
45     "Terror Starts at Home"      Miguel Arteta     Kate Robin     July 25, 2004
Ruth throws a birthday dinner for David who is struggling in the aftermath of his carjacking; Claire gets "closer" with some friends; Vanessa discovers Rico’s relationship with Sophia.
46     "The Dare"      Peter Webber     Bruce Eric Kaplan     August 1, 2004
Claire’s art critique raises questions among her classmates; Ruth goes on a fossil hunt with George and digs up Sarah and Bettina. At long last, Keith comes out to his co-workers and Federico is outed by Vanessa.
47     "Coming and Going"      Dan Attias     Nancy Oliver     August 8, 2004
Ruth comes to a melting point in her marriage. Claire continues to be seduced by Edie but begins to find it difficult to relate to her. Federico moves into the funeral home and Nate and Brenda take Maya on a train ride.
48     "Grinding the Corn"      Alan Caso     Rick Cleveland     August 15, 2004
Ruth and Bettina travel to Mexico. David continues to struggle with post-traumatic stress. Claire is given the cold shoulder by Edie and Anita. Claire achieves her first orgasm.
49     "The Black Forest"      Peter Care     Jill Soloway, Craig Wright     August 22, 2004
Nate, Brenda and Maya attend a memorial service for Lisa in Idaho. David and Keith are inspired by a same-sex wedding. Claire comes to final blows with Edie at Jimmy’s party. Ruth reconciles with George.
50     "Bomb Shelter"      Nicole Holofcener     Scott Buck     August 29, 2004
George becomes increasingly paranoid and discovers the family’s bomb shelter. Ruth wants to attend a sex workshop. David and Keith face a lawsuit. Brenda wants to have a child with Nate.
51     "Untitled"      Alan Ball     Nancy Oliver     September 12, 2004
Ruth is happy to meet George’s daughter but learns more about his past; David confronts a demon in jail; Claire has success during her art show but is deserted by her friends. Nate confronts Barb and Hoyt after David receives a message from Michaela.

Season 5: 2005
#     Title     Director     Writer     Original airdate
52     "A Coat of White Primer"      Rodrigo Garcia     Kate Robin     June 6, 2005
Nate and Brenda prepare for a big day; Ruth is far from ecstatic on George’s return home; David and Keith consider being parents.
53     "Dancing for Me"      Dan Attias     Scott Buck     June 13, 2005
Nate hangs with friends from high school; Brenda starts her internship; Maggie gives Ruth much needed relief.
54     "Hold My Hand"      Jeremy Podeswa     Nancy Oliver     June 20, 2005
Claire is seduced by Billy’s newfound lust for life; George is haunted by visions from his mother’s death.
55     "Time Flies"      Alan Poul     Craig Wright     June 27, 2005
Brenda has surprises for Nate on his 40th birthday; David and Keith "propose" to Mary, a surrogate.
56     "Eat a Peach"      Dan Minahan     Rick Cleveland     July 4, 2005
Ruth finds a way to relax without George; David and Keith attend an adoption open house and meet an 8 year old named Anthony; Nate and Brenda consider giving Maya a coherent narrative.
57     "The Rainbow of Her Reasons"      Mary Harron     Jill Soloway     July 10, 2005
Ruth is delighted when her sister Sarah visits; David and Keith begin experiencing difficulties on how to discipline their new foster children; Nate muses on the loss of his first love. Vanessa hires a nanny.
58     "The Silence"      Joshua Marston     Bruce Eric Kaplan     July 17, 2005
David and Keith struggle to create boundaries for their new sons. Brenda and Nate receive some ambiguous news; Ruth fills her schedule with activities.
59     "Singing For Our Lives"      Matt Shakman     Scott Buck     July 24, 2005
When David attempts to make a bid on a crematorium, Federico refuses and pushes for another employee. Brenda receives information from her doctor. Nate begins attending Quaker services with Maggie, to the chagrin of Brenda. Ruth goes to see her ex-boyfriend, Hiram.
60     "Ecotone"      Dan Minahan     Nancy Oliver     July 31, 2005
After suffering a massive seizure, Nate is taken to the hospital. As Nate undergoes surgery, tension ensues between Maggie and Brenda in the waiting room. Elsewhere, Ruth is still camping in the wildnerness with Hiram and is completely oblivious to what is happening with her family in L.A.
61     "All Alone"      Adam Davidson     Kate Robin     August 7, 2005
Nate’s funeral divides the family; David deals with being left in charge of the family business, Keith makes an embarrassing discovery on the job; Brenda is challenged by Nate, and makes a painful decision about what to do with Maya; Maggie gets a door shut in her face.
62     "Static"      Michael Cuesta     Craig Wright     August 14, 2005
As David’s fears take over, Keith tries to protect him - and the boys; visions of Nate compel Brenda to make a decision about her relationship with Billy, who is supporting her; George wants to help Ruth with Maya. Claire’s grief begins to cause her to drink heavily and hallucinate while at Nate’s gravesite. Rico pushes for a talk about the business.
63     "Everyone’s Waiting"      Alan Ball     Alan Ball     August 21, 2005
David finally embraces his demons; Nathaniel Sr. talks to his younger son; Brenda delivers early and fights Nate’s negativity; Margaret is impressed to see Olivier’s nurturing side; Rico and Vanessa celebrate an investment; the family toast Nate’s memory at a farewell dinner for Claire; Claire’s departure reveals what’s to come for those she loves.
 

 

Only Yesterday & Pom Poko

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Untuk mengenang hari bumi, maka gw review Pom Poko dulu ..

 

Kedua film kartun ini produksi Studio Ghibli yang animasinya emang ciamik banget.

Pom Poko bercerita tentang perjuangan hidup racoon/musang di saat lingkungan hutan hijau mereka digantikan oleh pemukiman untuk manusia, tentang usaha mereka untuk bertahan hidup, bagaimana nasib racoon yang tidak bisa men-transformasi diri  menjadi benda lain yang ‘tidak aneh’ di mata manusia atau bahkan berubah wujud menjadi manusia, mereka hanya bisa menjadi mahluk underground dan just an ordinary racoon.. just like that. Mati karena ga bisa adaptasi dengan lingkunga, menyeberang jalan raya dan masuk ke dalam jebakan manusia. Huhh.. jadi ingat dengan nasib musang di atas rumah dan kantor.. tapi entah sekarang tak ada lagi terdengar dan tercium bau pandan aroma musang. Kasihan ya.. Manusia emang kejam kok!. Makanya gw nti pengen punya rumah dengan halaman luas, buat hidup binatang-binatang liar. Tapi klo ular?? mikir dulu dech. Ini cerita binatang yang paling ceria dan cerdas serta lucu banget soalnya diambil dari sudut pandang musang yang udah jadi manusia.

Only Yesterday

Kisah seorang gadis kota yang sudah bosan dengan rutinitas metropolitan, berlibur ke desa dan menemukan kedamaian dalam rutinitas kehidupan pedesaan. Selain itu dia juga masih dibayang-bayangi oleh memori masa kelas lima sd-nya. Mungkin karena saat itu dia pertama kali merasa confused dengan jatidirinya sebagai anak bungsu yang tidak pintar tapi kritis, dan cenderung kepada seni dan sastra, namun ditentang oleh orangtuanya. Animasinya bagus dan membuat kita kembali bertanya pada diri kita, apa sih yang sebenarnya kita inginkan?…. 

 

April 21, 2008

Sibuk menonton dvd

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Sabtu minggu kemaren gw bener-bener mantengin tv dan dvd player di kamar buat menuntaskan season 1 Six Feet under. Ternyata, hari ini gw baru tau klo yang nulis dan sutradara episode 1. Pilot itu Alan Ball, sutradara American Beauty, pantes aja ceritanya edann!!!.  Gambarnya bagus ( i mean the picture! not the scene which is almost so hot in every episode, tapi setelah gw baca episode guidenya yang ternyata sampe’ terakhir isinya yah begitu deh.. ya maklum aja ). Mungkin ini ada hubungannya dengan teori psikologi yang gw dapet dr novel ‘murahan atw picisan’ yg menyebutkan klo near to death remain us to do something to resist and one of it with reproducing. Ingat loh ini bukan sumber yg terpercaya jadi jangan dijadikan referensi. Ok back to the series. . Klo pernah liat american beauty, yang tentunya gambarnya tuh bagus dan penuh bunga, disini jg penuh bunga.. tentang ibunya yg kerja di toko bunga, belajar ikebana / merangkai bunga dan juga ada dialog tentang mawar,
customer: bunga apa yg pantas diberikan kepada org yg dicintai
Ruth/ibu: mawar
customer: klo dia pernah berselingkuh? warna apa yg pantas kuberikan?
Ruth/ibu: mmm… kuning, karena dia pernah meragu kanmu
Well…. that’s explain why too many roses and flowers around here. Ciri khas Alan Ball. So, daftar sutradara yg gw suka nambah lagi, selain JJ Abrams dan Quentine Tarantino, Martin Scorsese, Francis Ford Coppola sama Roman Polanski.
Ceritanya sih drama comedy sedikit sarkastik dan ironis. How they died. Padahal biasanya gw dah miris duluan liat film model begini, tapi berhasil dengan sukses melihatnya tanpa dipercepat. Secara keseluruhan emang lucu dan bagus warna-warni dan penggambarannya, namun klo harus ngikutin 63 episode dengan alur plot yang ’sangat penuh dg  psikoanalisis ini’ mending gw langsung jump ke fifth seasonnya aja dech. 

The Sims Is A Global Cultural Phenomenon In 60 Countries And 22 Languages Thanks To Players of The Sims Everywhere

Di atas tadi adalah judul Headline dari press release The Sims’ salah satu produk EA ( Electronic Arts) press yang merayakan penjualan 100 juta unit di seluruh dunia.

Gw adalah salah satu penggemarnya dan ‘pernah’ sangat addict, mulai dari the sim dan semua adds on - nya, kemudian serial the sims 2, namun tidak semuanya karena waktu edisi awal masih penuh dengan bugs jadi gw nyerah tuk koleksi sims 2, akhirnya ‘Thanks God’ ada sims life stories dan gw pun mulai berminat tuk koleksi permainan ini.

Menurut statistik 60% gamers terdiri atas perempuan, EA salah satu dari perusahaan yang pertama kali mengendus pangsa pasar ini, yah sapa sih yang ga pernah liat klo cwe tuh suka main barbie dolls dan pernak-perniknya sampe’ rumahnya yg mewah dan sangat pink ituh?.. ya sama aja ky cwo yg suka game strategi perang dan olahraga. So, celah bisnis ini segera dimanfaatkan oleh EA untuk memberikan dunia khayalan buat gamers dan memberikan peluang sebesar-besarnya (secara virtual loh!) untuk menciptakan karakter2 & dunia mereka.  

Bagi yang pengen create & manage ‘the bigger neighborhood’ yah coba mainkan simcity series. Dijamin ketagihan!. . . hehehe

As a special thank you to players of The Sims, you can visit The Sims 2 on April 16th to download a "complimentary exclusive outfit for your Sims in honor of this milestone."

Party down, Sims!

April 18, 2008

Efek rumah kaca @ zoe Depok 18 April 2008 19:00

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Kemaren gw balikin buku dan minjem serial Six feet under season 1. Tadinya cari grey anatomy tapi ga nemu dan ga nanya. Trus tanya apa ada hottest state jg ga ada.. uhukk sedih. Jadinya malah minjem itu plus kartun dari studio ghibli.

Pas mo’ bayar taunya hari Jumat tgl 18 April 2008 jam 7 malam ke atas, bakalan ada live music yang mana akan ada bintang tamu salah satunya Efek Rumah Kaca!. Yah.. sayang sekali pagi ini gw pilek mo flu berat, kayanya sih masuk angin yang terlalu lama dibiarkan begitu saja. Eghhh..!!

Tonton ya klo sempat!. Kapan hari gw jg dpt sms dr fren buat liat 50cent di x-lounge plaza semanggi, jumat ini jg, tapi kok pas gw liat ke jakartaspot.com acaranya kok rave party gitu. Yah, ogah dech. Sebel dan kecewa.

I’m missing everything…

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Iya loh, karena chat tadi pagi dengan salah satu teman smp (yang sebenernya dulu ga kenal dekat banget, just say hello goodbye aja). Chat nanya kenal ini ga? kenal itu ga? wahh…. membuat gw terhempas ke masa lalu, palagi pas liat fs nya dia, banyak jg teman dr masa lalu gw yang ga’ gw inget sama sekali mulai dari tampangnya yang berubah dari imut-imut jadi amit-amit dech.. (just kidding). sampe ke urusan yg lebih detil misalnya dia namanya sapa panggilannya sapa trus historynya gimana dan lain-lain… Blank… beneran gw ga inget dan ga kenal. Masa smp yg murni gw kenal pastinya klo ga pernah bareng pulang satu kendaraan umum ma gw ato urusan ga penting ky lovers icon di smp yah.. itu mah ga bakal gw kenal. Ihiii.. dan salah satunya orang yg naksir dan gw taksir ituh jg ga gw inget dengan detil kok, bahwa dia dulu pernah duduk di bangku belakang gw jg tak ada dalam memori gw.. ih kacian deh kamu… gw ingetnya malah karena cwo itu pacaran dengan seseorang dan jadi legend di skul dulu. Jadi, ga’ semua dari masa lalu gw nempel dg baik di otak gw yg terbatas dan rajin clean up temporary files.. hehehee.. maap-maap. Apalagi temen sma, pastinya ga’ kenal klo dia ga’ gw benci dan gw suka.. midclass.. maksudnya kelas abu-abu atau netral itu masuk temporary files. Lagipula saat sma kan otak gw dah full buat iceberg. Klo smp buat mimpiin kuliah di ugm atau itb, naksirnya jg sama temen kuliah sepupu gw wah! kacau dech…

Gw kehilangan masa lalu gw, sedikit menyesal, tapi ga juga sih, kadang… hehe 

April 17, 2008

wii Fit.. makes sports sound really fun

wii fit
 

balance board

 

Ok, jadi rincian produknya sbb: (nyontek dari amazon.com)

Klo kalian ga suka olahraga tapi suka banget nonton acara olahraga dan main game olahraga (termasuk olahraga otak seperti main game solitaire). Pasti kalian akan tertarik dengan produk dari nintendo ini. Mungkin produk ini dimaksudkan untuk menyaingi PS2 dengan dance revolution mat nya itu. Namun disini kelasnya lebih luas, sebab dapat digunakan untuk aerobik, yoga dan game lain yang fungsinya untuk menjaga keseimbangan, selain itu menurut iklan sih salah satu featurenya dapat untuk menghitung BMI. Wah, ibu-ibu nih yang agak sensi soal obesitas bisa menggunakannya, oiya karena katanya sih game ini lebih asyik lagi klo dimainin berjamaah eh dengan orang banyak atw rame-rame, kaya’nya bisa juga saat arisan ibu-ibu bawa papan setrikaan eh wii board dong. Nti kegiatan arisan bisa memberi dampak positif ada value added nya gitu loh, jadi klo biasanya ngegosip ga jelas gitu klo udah too juicy gitu secara ga sadar pasti makin rakus menyambar camilan dan makanan yang disajikan dan minum banyak-banyak yang manis dan memabukkan kaya air tuak, bloody marry, cosmopolitan.. heheehehe.. berlebihan. Mending dg ber-wii fit ini, makin sehat, dan persaingannya jg menambah baik, misal saingan BMI nya dan semoga ga jadi banyak yg kena bulimia ato anoreksia hehehe. ambil nge gosip kan bisa sambil main game, asal jgn pas lagi yoga.. nti bisa salah otot semua malah repot. Jadi selesai arisan anda sekalian bisa tambah segar bugar waras sehat dan cape’ dech ogah lagi ngomongin tetangga dan urusan ga penting lainnya. Jadi makin sehat kan otak anda dari piktor negatif itu, suami anda dan anak anda serta keluarga dan sekitarnya akan semakin respek, lahh kok jualan sih???.. Nah selanjutnya iklan ini dipersembahkan oleh amazon.com, untuk sementara pre order tgl 20-21 Mei 2008. Moga sukses berolahraga! 

 

The Wii Fit Balance Board
The primary tenet of Wii Fit is balance. Your center of balance, the point between your left and right sides when you stand upright, has a lot to do with your health. Those without an even center of balance will be unnaturally compensating for this imbalance, which causes their posture to become misaligned, increasing the possibility of putting unnecessary strain on their bodies. This is where the Wii Balance Board comes in.

Similar in appearance to a step aerobics board, the Wii Balance Board is much, much more. Easily capable of supporting weights up to a maximum of 300 pounds, it is sturdy and precise, able to measure weight and register pressure accurately when placed on a variety of flat surfaces. This advanced level of sensitivity allows for both the wide range of activities found in the Wii Fit software as well as the board’s amazing ability recognize individual players by their weight alone.

Getting Started: Create a Profile
Before you jump into doing exercises and activities, you’ll start by creating a profile. This is done easily and intuitively by simply choosing a Mii, entering your height and age information, and doing a few quick tests that will serve as a baseline for your new Wii fitness regimen. These tests are:

  • BMI Check: BMI, or Body Mass Index, is a measure of body fat based on height and weight that is the standard used by agencies such as the World Health Organization and the National Institute of Health. To check your BMI, you’ll enter your height then stand on the Wii Balance Board and let it read your weight.
  • Wii Fit Age: After you’ve checked your BMI, you’ll do a basic balance test and find out your current Wii Fit Age. This basic balance test measures how well you can control your left and right balance. Based on the results, you’ll be assigned a Wii Fit Age.

Four Categories of Fun
Once you have created your profile it’s time to have some fun. Wii Fit features four main categories of exercises to choose from: Strength Training, Aerobics, Yoga and Balance Games. Wii Fit will guide you through the first three with the help of your own virtual personal trainer, while the balance games offer variety and fun to help keep you engaged and excited about your fitness goals. In addition, as you spend time exercising, you’ll earn Fit Credits that unlock additional exercises and activities within your favorite categories that will allow you to continue to push yourself. See more detail on the four categories below:

  • Strength Training: Put your strength to the test with muscle-toning exercises like Single Leg Extension, Sideways Leg Lift, Arm and Leg Lift, Single-Arm Stand, Torso Twists, Rowing Squat, Single Leg Twist, Lunge, Push-Up and Side Plank, Jackknife, Plank and Tricep Extension. Challenges include Push-Up Challenge, Plank Challenge and Jackknife Challenge.
  • Aerobics: Get your heart pumping with fun, interactive Aerobic exercises like Hula Hoop, Basic Step, Basic Run, Super Hula Hoop, Advanced Step, 2-P Run, Rhythm Boxing, Free Step and Free Run.
  • Yoga: Work on your balance and flexibility with Yoga poses and activities like Deep Breathing, Half-Moon, Dance, Cobra, Bridge, Spinal Twist, Shoulder Stand, Warrior, Tree, Sun Salutation, Standing Knee, Palm Tree, Chair, Triangle and Downward-Facing Dog.
  • Balance Games: Get into the action with fun, balanced-based games like Soccer Heading, Ski Slalom, Ski Jump, Table Tilt, Tightrope Walk, Balance Bubble, Penguin Slide, Snowboard Slalom and Lotus Focus.

Keep Track of Your Progress
Because keeping fit is an ongoing process, Wii Fit also tracks the activities you do the most and puts them into your Favorites category. With this information players can note exercises and activities that they are strong in, as well as others that may need to improve at. Some of the ways players can use this information for are to:

  • Keep tabs on your daily progress with easy-to-understand graphs and charts. Using your personal profile, you can set goals, view a graph of your BMI results over time, see how many Fit Credits you’ve earned, check your Wii Fit Age and even enter exercise time you’ve done outside of Wii Fit. It’s all about coming back and exercising a little every day, and the personal profile makes tracking your daily progress simple and easy.
  • Quickly check your Wii Fit Age and BMI without even putting the game in the console by going directly to the Wii Fit Channel.
  • Allow up to eight family members can create their own profiles in Wii Fit. On the profile-selection screen, everyone in the family can see each other’s recent BMI progress and Fit Credit total. This will allow families to have a friendly competition to exercise and get fit.
Variety, fun and progress tracking; Wii Fit has it all. So, Wii owners if you ready to reclaim your balance and get fit all you need is Wii Fit, a few minutes a day to play and the urge to have fun. Get on board today.

Product Description
The active-play phenomenon started by Wii Sports now spreads to your whole body thanks to a pressure-sensitive Wii balance board, which comes packed with Wii Fit. The board is used for an extensive array of fun and dynamic activities, including aerobics, yoga, muscle stretches and games. Many of these activities focus towards providing a "core" workout, a popular exercise method that emphasizes slower, controlled motions. Family members will have fun staying active and talking about and comparing their results and progress on a new channel on the Wii Menu.

The Goal

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Baru kali ini gw nge-review buku yang ’super duper berat bwangetzz’, padahal nih alur plot penyajian data sudah dibuat ala cerita fiksi gitu, tapi tetep aja njlimet bin mumet alias depressed me..
Kemudian, karena males dan agak lupa, jadi gw copy paste aja dari wikipedia.. hehehehe 
 
The book gives a good example of the Evaporating Cloud thinking process when Alex Rogo wants to increase the plant’s throughput but he can not do so according to a salesman, Johnny Jons, because there are not any deals available. However, later it turns out that there is a deal from a French client who wants a certain part at a low price and in a massive amount, the conflict being they won’t make a big profit and Alex’s plant can’t produce the amount wanted in time. Alex’s team comes up with the idea that if they can’t produce it all at one time they could produce the quantity in pieces which bumps the price back up because the client isn’t ordering in bulk anymore. The French client hears of the plan and makes a deal with Jons even though it’s a little more costly which increases the throughput of Alex’s plant and the net profit of Unico by finding a win-win solution to a situation that had goals in conflict with each other

one day in my life.. plesetan dari one day in ur life

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Gw sedang meresapi dan berkhayal dengan daya imaginasi tinggi tentang one day in my life when everything just went in d right track
u’re the one calling me home
 
April 16, 2008

Tips awet myuda.. hahahaa..

dari Kompas.com : Rabu, 16 April 2008 | 12:40 WIB

Usia boleh saja bertambah. Namun, wajah harus tetap segar dan awet muda! Untuk mengantisipasi datangnya kerutan sebelum saatnya, lakukan beberapa tips berikut yang mudah diaplikasi sehari-hari.

1. Stop rokok. Kandungan nikotin di dalam rokok dapat mempercepat timbulnya kerut-kerut, terutama di ujung mata, dahi, dan bagian samping bibir. Selain itu, kulit akan tampak kusam dan kasar.

2. Hindari sindroma yoyo. Cegah kenaikan dan penurunan berat badan (sindroma yoyo) terlalu drastis, seperti diet yang terlalu ketat tanpa diimbangi olahraga dan nutrisi yang cukup.

3. Gunakan krim malam. Sebelum tidur, jangan lupa bersihkan sisa make up di seluruh wajah dan leher, lalu balurkan krim malam dan eye cream yang mengandung anti aging, untuk menyamarkan kerut di wajah, leher dan area mata. Gunakan juga pelembab atu moisturizer mengandung anti aging di pagi hari.

4. Olahraga teratur. Lakukan 1 jam setiap hari. Di saat berolahraga, pori-pori kulit akan mengeluarkan keringat. Artinya, kulit membersihkan dirinya secara alamiah sehingga peredaran darah akan lancar, serta meningkatkan metabolisme kulit. Pilih olahraga seperti yoga, pilates, atau berenang.

5. Hindari minuman beralkohol!

6. Perbanyak minum air putih. Sedikitnya, minumlah 8 gelas air putih per hari. Kurangnya cairan di dalam tubuh akan berefek langsung pada kulit, sehingga kulit akan terlihat bersisik, kering, kusam dan kehilangan elastisitasnya.

7. Minum vitamin. Lengkapi asupan Anda setiap hari dengan vitamin C dan E setiap hari, agar kulit tetap tampak cantik dan segar.

8. Konsumsi sayur dan buah segar. Perbanyak makanan mengandung serat dan vitamin. Sayuran dan buah tak hanya membantu memperlancar proses metabolisme tubuh dan pencernaan, tetapi juga memberi tambahan nutrisi bagi kulit. Pilih buah berwarna seperti pepaya, tomat, jeruk, apel, dan makanan berbahan sayuran sperti salad, gado-gado, karedok, urap, lalapan. Dan, jangan lupa minum susu 1 gelas sehari. Jika tergolong gemuk, pilih susu non fat.

9. Tidur cukup. Idealnya, tidurlah di bawah jam 22.00 selama 8 jam sehari. Sebab, proses perbaikan dan regenerasi kulit bekerja efektif pada jam 21.00-24.00.


(NOVA)

Ita Adnan

baru tau

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tadi sempat baca blog sohibnya ryu, ternyata dari dulu emang dia dah stress berat. Hehehee… kok ceritanya justru sama sohibnya yah?. Klo ama gw palingan jg langsung gw cuekin seminggu. Kejem. Pantes aja ga mempan diberi wejangan, udah ada kali semua skript ocehan gw klo lagi ’sok’ memberi saran, padahal who care eniweii.. *sok ngomong gitu dech*, tapi emang bener kok biasanya klo ada orang lain yang ga’ nganggep omongan gw biasanya sih gw ga ambil peduli. Cuek beibehh, tapi berhubung dia tuh ada hubungannya ma gw, ya ga bisa gt aja dong. Masa depan dia kan ada hubungannya sama masa depan ogut. Yeah, ga’ ngaruh jg sih. Kecuali, setelah gw tungguin sampe umur gw dang deng dong trus dia membuat ulah atau ‘bertingkah lagi’ .. NO EXCUSE gitu loh, berarti kan dia cuman omdo aja. Ah, takut jg sih, abis kesannya gw ngebut abis di jalan bebas hambatan di tengah malam, saat jalan bener-bener sepi, sementara dia nyante aja ngadepin macet gara-gara ada angkot ngetem. Weks.. auk ah. Sekarang di siang hari ini, dia lagi menghadiri resepsi pernikahan sohibnya, nti malam gw ga’ akan diskusi tentang ‘kita’ elo kali gw kagak *terbawa angin indosiar*. Biar dia cerita aja, apakah dia bertemu mantan dan orang-orang di masa lalunya, apakah reunian kecil-kecilan ini bisa meningkatkan motivasi dirinya untuk lebih ‘fight’ lagi. Ehmm.. tunggu aja besok beritanya.
 

how am i supposed to be

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Kemaren gw sempat posting soal lirik lagu stop n stare, ceritanya nih gw udah ngerasa ‘eneg’ berada di tempat yang ‘membosankan dan tidak konduksif’. Terus meski udah merasa demikian, gw ga kunjung-kunjung jg mangkir kabur meloloskan diri dari tempat itu. Ehm… susah dijelaskan, apakah gw udah tidak punya kepercayaan diri yg cukup atau keberanian?.. Kadang ada relevansinya dengan everybody changes nya Keane. yah.. ga’ tau gw musti bagaimana untuk menjadi seperti yang gw impikan.. emoticon
April 15, 2008

Stop & stare

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One Republic - Stop & Stare

This town is colder now, I think it’s sick of us
It’s time to make our move, I’m shakin’ off the rust
I’ve got my heart set on anywhere but here
I’m staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I’m moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I’ve become what I can’t be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you’re ‘here’ not ‘there’
And you’d give anything to get what’s fair
But fair ain’t what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

They’re tryin’ to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight bags, I never thought I could
Steady feet, don’t fail me now
Gonna run till you can’t walk
Something pulls my focus out
And I’m standing down

Stop and stare
I think I’m moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I’ve become what I can’t be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you’re ‘here’ not ‘there’
And you’d give anything to get what’s fair
But fair ain’t what you really need
Oh, you don’t need

What you need, what you need, what you need

Stop and stare
I think I’m moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I’ve become what I can’t be
Oh, do you see what I see?

April 14, 2008

Ocehan Lucy, Kite Runner & For One More Day

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Sabtu & Minggu kemaren gw ga kemana-mana, baca buku aja. Gw bisa juga kelar baca 3 buku dalam 2 hari. So, ini review buku pinjeman gw:

- Ocehan Lucy  

Lucy, staf junior marketing di Widgetex, perusahaan elektronik, mempunyai pacar Greg seorang pilot pesawat carteran yang selalu manfaatin dia. Kemudian dekat dengan Alex seorang jurnalis otomotif yang anak mama. Akhirnya menyadari klo seseorang yg mencintai dan selalu ada untuknya itu ternyata tetangga sebelahnya, Big Mike atau Michael Efron, seorang dokter hewan. Ceritanya ga’ fokus. Berpindah-pindah antara keluarganya yg aneh, ibu yang terobsesi untuk menjadi masterchef, ayah yang gemar dengan gadget-gadget bertukang namun seringkali error dalam melakukan uji coba peralatannya, adiknya Alice yang bandel dan rajin berpartisipasi dalam demo aktivis lingkungan. Lalu ada pula neneknya, Violet, yang masih suka party-party, alkoholik dan ehm… pacaran. Hehheeehe. Tadinya Lucy tinggal di flat bersama dengan 3 orang temannya, Mo, Bella dan Jane. Namun, Mo, sedang asyik backpacking ke Asia. Kemudian, kedua temannya akan segera menikah sehingga dia pindah sementara ke flat Mike dan baru menyadari ‘the one for her’ itu ternyata the guy next door nya Lucy.

- Kite Runner

Kisah persahabatan, persaudaraan, perang, kesetiaan, pengabdian, pengkhianatan, kekejaman dan dendam masa kecil. Masa lalu yang kelam, rahasia keluarga terkadang menjadi semacam penyakit turunan yang berulang .. yah sejarah selalu berulang kan?.. seperti itulah. Amir & Hassan bersahabat sejak kecil, meski ada dalam kasta yang berbeda dan suku serta aliran yang berbeda. Amir Sunni, Hassan Syiah. Dalam cerita digambarkan kekalutan pikiran Amir untuk mengakui apakah Hassan temannya,mengingat perbedaan antara mereka. Namun Hassan selalu membelanya… untuk keseribu kalinya. Bagaiman perasaannya yang iri atas kekaguman ayahnya sendiri atas keberanian Hassan dalam menghadapi tantangan (maksudnya sebagai anak laki-laki Hassan lebih sporty sementara Amir lebih suka membaca, mengarang dan berdiam diri di kamar).  Ceritanya menyedihkan banget, ironis, menyayat hati. Yah bisa dibilang Les Miserables ala Afghanistan (mengingat pengarangnya menyebut adanya poster Les Miserables di kedutaan Amrik di Pakistan, jadi sedikit dapat disimpulkan ada sedikit koneksi antara cerita ini dengan LM). Khaled Hosseini  ngebawain ceritanya indah banget, bisa banget ngerasain thriller saat mo keluar dari Afghan dan kesedihan atas rasa bersalah ketidakberdayaan masa kecil. Bagus banget deh. Gw bacanya ‘meski ceritanya ngebuat gw berderai-derai’ 3 jam nonstop (eh jedanya buat ngusap air mata sama nyari tissue buat idung hehehe..). Tuhan tuh ada kok, dan Dia selalu menunjukkan jalan buat para pencariNya.

- For One More Day

Kasih ibu sepanjang masa, kasih anak sebatas mata. Tentang seorang anak yang merasa kehilangan arah hidupnya karena kehidupan rumah tangganya berantakan, tidak mempunyai karier yang mantap dsb. Alkoholik. Mencoba bunuh diri, namun saat dia sekarat dia berjumpa kembali dengan ibunya yang telah meninggal 8 tahun yang lalu. Mengajaknya berjumpa dengan orang-orang yang akan meninggal. Ikut menghibur dan mempercantik mereka sebelum perjalanan abadinya. Dari catatan hariannya dia menemukan bahwa selama ini kasih ibunya selalu melebihi tindakan-tindakannya yg membuat ibunya kecewa. Namun. ibunya berkata. "Kamu anakku adalah jawaban dari doaku, aku tidak pernah menyesali kehadiranmu". Semua pengharapan atas kasih sayang ayahnya ternyata tidak mendapat balasan yg baik dari ayahnya, bahkan pada saat terakhir,  saat ultah ibunya dan pada saat itulah ibunya meninggal, dia sedang dalam pertandingan bisbol demi ayahnya. Namun, ayahnya tidak sedikitpun memberi jawaban atas harapannya, bahkan menghindarinya. Jadi, jangan pernah memberikan pilihan pada anak anda: kamu mau menjadi anak mama atau anak papa.. mereka tidak berhak memilih. Mereka adalah anak mama & papa.

Coba tanyakan pada dirimu sendiri: Pernahkah kau kehilangan seseorang yang kausayangi dan kau ingin bisa bercakap-cakap dengannya sekali lagi, mendapatkan satu lagi kesempatan utk menggantikan waktu-waktu ketika kau menganggap mereka akan selalu ada selamanya? Jika pernah, maka kau pasti tahu bahwa seberapa banyak pun kau mengumpulkan hari-hari sepanjang hidupmu, semuanya takkan cukup untuk menggantikan satu hari itu, satu hari yang ingin sekali bisa kaumiliki lagi. Bagaimana jika kau bisa mendapatkan kembali satu hari itu?.
Pada masa kanak-kanak, pada umumnya.. seorang ibu mengisi penuh kehidupan seorang anak, memberi saran, mgnkritik pokoknya semua hal yang biasa dilakukan seorang ibu.. merecoki anaknya. Saat dia tak ada, bagaikan itik kehilangan induknya. Anak akan kehilangan arah, hanya mengambang mengikuti arus air di tepi sungai. Para ibu membangun ilusi tertentu tentang anak-anaknya dan salah satunya, aku menyukai diriku sendiri karena ibuku menyukainya. Saat dia meninggal pemikiran itu ikut menghilang/
Saat kau membusuk dari dalam dirimu, kau akan membusuk dihadapan semua orang bahkan orang-orang yang kausayangi.
Ibu menyayangiku saat datang dan pergi, saat terburuk dan terbaik, sumur kasih sayang yang tak berdasar buat anaknya. Kesalahannya dia tak pernah membuatku berusaha untuk mendapatkan kasih sayangnya.
teorinya: anak-anak mengejar rasa sayang yang sukar diraih (ayahnya). Yang menyimpannya jauh seperti dokumen dalam tas kerja dan terus mencoba berusaha membukanya.
Anak-anak terlalu banyak berharap dari satu orang tua dan memandang yang satu lagi lebih rendah standarnya.
Anak-anak terkadang bis mengucapkan kata-kata yang kejam, sampai kita ingin bertanya "anak siapa sih ini?"
Biasanya mereka hanya sedang merasa terluka saja. Mereka perlu menyelesaikan masalahnya.
Terkadang anak-anak ingin kau terluka sebagaiamana dia terluka.
anak yang merasa malu karena ibunya hanya anak yg belum terlalu lama menjalani hidup.
divorce: cerai - berasal dari divertere: mengubah. Perceraian mengubahmu, membawamu pergi dari segala sesuatu yang kaupikir kau tahu dan segala sesuatu yang kaupikir kau inginkan dan mengantarmu ke dalam berbagai macam hal yang lain.. seperti apakah seharusnya dia menikah lagi dengan orang lain.
kembali menjalani yang pernah kautinggalkan itu lebih sulit daripada yang kaukira
ini yang akan kautemui dalam pernikahan: kau harus mengusahakannya bersama-sama dan kau harus mencintai tiga hal:
1. satu sama lain
2. anak-anakmu (jika kau sudah punya)
3. pernikahanmu ; akan ada masanya ketika kalian bertengkar bahkan saling tidak menyukai. Disaat itulah kau harus mencintai pernikahanmu. Perlakukan pernikahanmu seperti pihak ketiga. Lihat lagi foto-foto pernikahanmu, kenang kembali semua kenangan yang kalian miliki. Jika kau percayai semua kenangan itu, mereka akan menyatukan kalian kembali.
Lebih sulit mana, mendaki atau saat turun gunung?. Saat turun, karena saat mendaki kau pusatkan seluruh perhatian untuk mencapai puncak, kau menghindari semua kesalahan.
Punggung sebuah gunung adalah peperangan melawan tabiat manusia. Kau harus berhati-hati dengan hidupmu saat menuruninya sama sperti saat kau menaikinya.
Kalau seseorang ada di dalam hatimu, mereka tidak akan pernah benar-benar pergi. Mereka bisa kembali padamu, bahkan pada waktu-waktu yang tak terduga.
masa lalu tidak seharusnya menghilang begitu saja
Betapa sifat orangtuamu diteruskan melewati dirimu kepada anak-anakmu, entah kau menyukainya atau tidak.
hal yang paling menyesakkan itu: Pada hari yang sama aku kehilangan kedua orangtuaku, yang satu karena malu dan satunya lagi karena maut.
Tenyata ayahnya memiliki keluarga lain
Kau punya satu keluarga, kau tidak boleh menukarnya, tidak boleh mendustainya , tak bisa menjalani dua pada saat bersamaan berpindah-pindah dari satu ke yang lainnya.
tetap tinggal bersama keluargamu adalah apa yang menjadikannya keluarga.
Ada banyak hal dalam hidupku yang kuharap bisa kuperbaiki. dan kuulangi. Namun satu hal yang ingin kuubuah seandainya aku bisa mengubah meski satu hal saja, bukan untukku tapi untuk putriku. Saat menemukan neneknya, ini seharusnya tidak terjadi. Dia masih kanak-kanak. Kupikir itukah sebabnya kau meratap ketakukan mencari hidup baru, karena jauh di dalam hati aku tidak lagi merasa layak untuk menjalani kehidupanku yang lam aku melarikan diri, seperti ayahku.
ketika semua terdiam, aku masih bisa mendengar gema ibuku, sekarang aku merasa malu pernah berniat bunuh diri hidup begitu berharga, aku tak memiliki seorangpun yan gbisa membujukku keluar dari keputusasaan, dan itu sebuah kesalahan. Kau perlu memiliki orang didekatmu. Kau perlu memberi mereka jalan masuk ke hatimu.
Aku percaya bahwa orangtua kalau mereka menyayangimu, mereka akan menggendongmu supaya aman, jauh diatas arus permasalahan mereka, dan terkadang itu berarti kau tak kan pernah tahu apa yang merreka alami dan kau bisa saja memperlakukan mereka dengan buruk, dengan cara-cara yang tak mungkin kaulakukan seandainya kau tahu.
Tapi selalu ada cerita dibalik semuanya, bagaimana sebuah lukisan bisa tergantung di dinding, bagaiman luka membekas di wajah. KAdang ceritanya sederhana kadang keras dan mgnhancurkan hati, tapi dibalik semua ceritamu selalu terdapat cerita ibumu, karena ceritanya adalah awal dimulainya ceritamu.
Aku ingin memperbaiki banyak hal dengan orang yang kucintai.

 

April 11, 2008

Melancholy melodramatic

Filed under: Movies
Since reading good review about some melancholy movie, I’d like to watch n re watch again some of romantic movies which is contain with full ‘depressed’ conversation .. ummm… I mean deep conversation which I like to think about it lately.. yeah some of ‘those all - mate’ matters.
So, this is the list
  • Before Sunrise (1995)

 

Review:

 

Before Sunrise is a passionate and intelligent romance between a young American (Jesse) and a French student (Celine) on the Budapest-Vienna train. They get off the train in Vienna and hang out for a while. A chance encounter on the train incites intrigue, and Jesse provocatively suggests that Celine postpones her return to France and embarks instead on a spontaneous expedition to Vienna. In the course of their 14-hour relationship, the two share in their love for the unrehearsed and their appreciation for the unexpected as they explore in a powerful meeting of hearts and minds.

Quotes: 

Celine: I believe if there’s any kind of God it wouldn’t be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there’s any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it’s almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.


Jesse: Sometimes I dream about being a good father and a good husband. And sometimes it feels really close. But then other times it seems silly like it would ruin my whole life. And it’s not just a fear of commitment or that I’m incapable of caring or loving because… I can. It’s just that, if I’m totally honest with myself I think I’d rather die knowing that I was really good at something. That I had excelled in some way than that I’d just been in a nice, caring relationship.

Jesse: I know happy couples… but I think they lie to each other!

Celine: I like to feel his eyes on me when I look away.

Celine: You know what I want?
Jesse: What?
Celine: To be kissed.
Jesse: Well I can do that.

Celine: I used to think that if none of your family or friends knew you were dead, it was like not really being dead. People can invent the best and the worst for you.

Celine: No, then it sounds like a male fantasy. Meet a French girl on the train, fuck her, and never see her again.

Celine: Each time I wear black, or like, lose my temper, or say anything about anything, you know, they always go, "Oh it’s so French. It’s so cute." Ugh! I hate that!

Celine: You know, I have this awful paranoid thought that feminism was mostly invented by men so that they could like, fool around a little more.

Street Poet: Daydream delusion, limousine eyelash / Oh baby with your pretty face / Drop a tear in my wineglass / Look at those big eyes / See what you mean to me / Sweet-cakes and milkshakes / I’m a delusion angel / I’m a fantasy parade / I want you to know what I think / Don’t want you to guess anymore / You have no idea where I came from / We have no idea where we’re going / Lodged in life / Like branches in a river/ Flowing downstream / Caught in the current / I carry you / You’ll carry me / That’s how it could be / Don’t you know me? / Don’t you know me by now?

Celine: We’re all happy and free as long as I can fuck as much as I want.

Jesse: Everybody’s parents fucked them up. Rich kids parents gave them too much. Poor kids, not enough. You know, too much attention, not enough attention. They either left them or they stuck around and taught them the wrong things.

Celine: I had worked for this old man and once he told me that he had spent his whole life thinking about his career and his work. And he was fifty-two and it suddenly struck him that he had never really given anything of himself. His life was for no one and nothing. He was almost crying saying that.

Jesse: I don’t know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that’s what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I’ll just be glad when something nice happens.

Guy on Bridge: I am the cow!

Jesse: You know what’s the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? Is when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they’re thinking of you. You know, you’d like to think you’re both in all this pain but they’re just like ‘Hey, I’m glad you’re gone’.

Jesse: There’s these breeds of monkeys, right, and all they do is have sex, all the time, you know? And they turn out to be the least violent, the most peaceful, the most happy, you know? So maybe fooling around isn’t so bad.
Celine: Are you talking about monkeys?
Jesse: Yes I’m talking about monkeys.
Celine: Ah, I thought so…

Celine: Isn’t everything we do in life a way to be loved a little more?

Celine: But then the morning comes, and we turn back into pumpkins, right?

Celine: Well, who says relationships have to last forever?

Jesse: Do you believe in reincarnation?
Celine: Yeah. Yeah, it’s interesting.
Jesse: Yeah, right. Well, most people, you know, a lot of people talk about past lives and things like that, you know? And even if they don’t believe it in some specific way, you know, people have some kind of notion of an eternal soul, right?
Celine: Yeah.
Jesse: OK, well this was my thought: 50,000 years ago, there are not even a million people on the planet. 10,000 years ago, there’s, like, two million people on the planet. Now there’s between five and six billion people on the planet, right? Now, if we all have our own, like, individual, unique soul, right, where do they all come from? You know, are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls? ‘Cause if they are, that represents a 5,000 to 1 split of each soul in the last 50,000 years, which is, like, a blip in the Earth’s time. You know, so at best we’re like these tiny fractions of people, you know, walking… I mean, is that why we’re so scattered? You know, is that why we’re all so specialized?
Celine: I don’t know. Wait a minute, I’m not sure… I don’t…
Jesse: Yeah, hang on, hang on. It’s a, it’s a totally scattered thought. It… which is kind of why it makes sense.

Celine: Maybe we should meet here in five years or something.
Jesse: All right, all right, five year- Five years! That’s a long time!
Celine: It’s awful! It’s like a sociological experiment!

 

  • Befor SUnset (2004)

 

Review:

 

 

Jesse, a writer from the US, and Celine, a Frenchwoman working for an environment protection organization, acquainted nine years ago on the train from Budapest to Vienna, meet again when Jesse arrives in Paris for a reading of his new book. As they have only a few hours until his plane leaves, they stroll through Paris, talking about their experiences, views and whether they still love each other, although Jesse is already married with a kid. 

 

 

Quotes:

Celine: Do I look any different?
[long pause]
Celine: I do?
Jesse: I’d have to see you naked.


Jesse: In the months leading up to my wedding, I was thinking about you all the time. I mean, even on my way there; I’m in the car, a buddy of mine is driving me downtown and I’m staring out the window, and I think I see you, not far from the church, right? Folding up an umbrella and walking into a deli on the corner of 13th and Broadway. And I thought I was going crazy, but now I think it probably was you.
Celine: I lived on 11th and Broadway.
Jesse: You see?

Celine: [Celine’s song] Let me sing you a waltz / Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts / Let me sing you a waltz / About this one night stand / You were, for me, that night / Everything I always dreamt of in life / But now you’re gone / You are far gone / All the way to your island of rain / It was for you just a one night thing / But you were much more to me, just so you know / I don’t care what they say / I know what you meant for me that day / I just want another try, I just want another night / Even if it doesn’t seem quite right / You meant for me much more than anyone I’ve met before / One single night with you, little Jesse, is worth a thousand with anybody / I have no bitterness, my sweet / I’ll never forget this one night thing / Even tomorrow in other arms, my heart will stay yours until I die / Let me sing you a waltz / Out of nowhere, out of my blues / Let me sing you a waltz / About this lovely one night stand

Celine: Memory’s a wonderful thing if you don’t have to deal with the past.

[first lines]
Journalist #1: Do you consider the book to be autobiographical?
Jesse: Uh, well, I mean… isn’t everything autobiographical?

[last lines]
Celine: Baby, you are gonna miss that plane.
Jesse: I know.

Jesse: In the months heading up to my wedding, I was thinking of you.

Celine: Were you there in Vienna, in December?

Jesse: [about his marriage] I feel like I’m running a small nursery with someone I used to date.

Jesse: I’m designed to feel slightly dissatisfied!

Celine: Memories are wonderful things, if you don’t have to deal with the past.

Jesse: Okay, I realize there are a lot of serious problems in the world.
Celine: Okay, thank you.
Jesse: Okay. I mean, I don’t even have one publisher in the whole Asian market.

Celine: An imperialist country can use that kind of thinking to justify their economic greed, you know. I - human rights…
Jesse: Is there any particular imperialist country you have in mind, there, Frenchie?
Celine: Mmm, no, not really…

Jesse: Maybe what I’m saying is, is the world might be evolving the way a person evolves. Right? Like, I mean, me for example. Am I getting worse? Am I improving? I don’t know. When I was younger, I was healthier, but I was, uh, whacked with insecurity, you know? Now I’m older and my problems are deeper, but I’m more equipped to handle them.

Celine: One night I heard some noise on my fire excape, so I called 911. And the cops came eventually…
Jesse: Yeah like three hours later.
Celine: [laughing] Yeah, after I had been raped and killed about 10 times.

Jesse: [describing how she looks different] Skinnier, I think. A little thinner.
Celine: Did you think I was fat before?
Jesse: [laughing] No!
Celine: Yeah, you thought I was a fatty. No, you thought I was a fatty! Yeah, you, you wrote a book about a fat French girl!
Jesse: No, listen…
Celine: [laughing] Oh, no…
Jesse: Seriously, all right, you look beautiful.

Jesse: Life’s hard. It’s supposed to be. If we didn’t suffer, we’d never learn anything.

Celine: It’s amazing what perverts we’ve become in the past nine years.

Jesse: At least now we don’t have to pretend that each new sexual experience is a life-altering event.
Celine: I know. By now, you know, you’ve stuck it in so many places, it’s like about to fall off.
Jesse: Yeah, you know, and I can’t realistically expect that you’ve become anything but a total ho, at this point.
Celine: Yeah, thank you.

Jesse: So what kind of songs do you write? I didn’t know you did that.
Celine: What kind?
Jesse: Yeah, sure.
Celine: I don’t know, just songs.
Jesse: Like?
Celine: Like, some are about, you know, people, uh, relationships. One’s about my cat.
Jesse: Sing one.
Celine: No, I can’t, I don’t have a guitar.
Jesse: Oh, co- come on. A cappella.
Celine: No, no, no. I’m not singing a song without a guitar. You’re nuts!
Jesse: Why not? It’s…
Celine: No, okay. Not now. No.
Jesse: One.
Celine: No.
Jesse: If not now, when? Wanna meet here in six months with a guitar? You know, I’ll fly all the way over here, you may or may not make the metro…
Celine: [laughing] Okay, that’s funny.

Jesse: Do you have kids?
Celine: Yes, two -
[gasps]
Celine: Shit!
Jesse: What?
Celine: I left them in the car! With the windows rolled up! It was six months ago! Think they’re okay?
[laughs]

Celine: Tell him to pick you up at Quai Henri Quatre.
Jesse: Oh, shit. K-kay…
Celine: Henri Quatre. Quai…
Jesse: K-k-k…
Celine: Henri Quatre.
Jesse: [laughing] On…
Celine: What’s wrong with you? No, do you want be to - Henri Quatre.
Jesse: Henry Four?
Celine: Yes.
Jesse: Come one, why didn’t you say so.
Celine: [laughing] I’m sorry, okay?

Jesse: I heard this story once about when the Germans were occupying Paris and they had to retreat back. They wired Notre Dame to blow, but they had to leave one guy in charge of hitting the switch. And the guy, the soldier, he couldn’t do it. You know, he just sat there, knocked out by how beautiful the place was. And then when the allied troops came in, they found all the explosives just lying there and the switch unturned, and they found the same thing at Sacre Couer, Eiffel Tower. Couple other places I think…
Celine: Is that true?
Jesse: I don’t know. I always liked the story, though.

Jesse: You want to know why I wrote that stupid book?
Celine: Why?
Jesse: So that you might come to a reading in Paris and I could walk up to you and ask, "Where the fuck were you?"
Celine: [laughing] No - you thought I’d be here today?
Jesse: I’m serious. I think I wrote it, in a way, to try to find you.
Celine: Okay, that’s - I know that’s not true, but that’s sweet of you to say.
Jesse: I think it is true.

Jesse: What do you think were the chances of us ever meeting again?
Celine: After that December, I’d say almost zero. But we’re not real anyway, right? We’re just, uh, characters in that old lady’s dream. She’s on her deathbed, fantasizing about her youth. So of course we had to meet again.

Jesse: Oh, God, why weren’t you there, in Vienna?
Celine: I told you why.
Jesse: Well, I know why, I just - I wish you would have been. Our lives might have been so much different.
Celine: You think so?
Jesse: I actually do.
Celine: Maybe not. Maybe, we would have hated each other eventually.
Jesse: Oh what, like we hate each other now?
Celine: You know, maybe we’re - we’re only good at brief encounters, walking around in European cities in warm climate.

Jesse: Oh, God, why didn’t we exchange phone numbers and stuff? Why didn’t we do that?
Celine: Because we were young and stupid.
Jesse: Do you think we still are?
Celine: I guess when you’re young, you just believe there’ll be many people with whom you’ll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times.
Jesse: And you can screw it up, you know, misconnect.

Celine: The past is the past. It was meant to be that way.
Jesse: What, you really believe that? That everything’s fated?
Celine: Well, you know, the world might be less free than we think.
Jesse: Yeah?
Celine: Yeah, when given these exact circumstances, that’s what will happen every time: two part hydrogen, one part oxygen, you get water every time.
Jesse: No, no, I - I - I mean what if your grandmother had lived a week longer, or, you know, or passed away a week earlier, days even. You know things might have been different. I believe that.
Celine: You can’t think like that, it’s…
Jesse: No, I mean, I know you shouldn’t on most things, but - It’s just, on this one it seemed like something was off, you know?

Celine: So what’s it like to be married? You haven’t talked much about that.
Jesse: I haven’t? How weird.

Jesse: I feel like if someone were to touch me, I’d dissolve into molecules.

Celine: So, I want to try something.
Jesse: What?
Celine: [hugs him] I want to see if you stay together or if you dissolve into molecules.
Jesse: How’m I doing?
Celine: Still here.
Jesse: Good, I like being here.

Celine: I love my kitty!
Jesse: What’s his name?
Celine: Che.
Jesse: Che?
Celine: Mmm hmm.
Jesse: Uh huh…
Celine: What?
Jesse: Commie.

Celine: Do you think you would have finished your book if you were fucking someone every five minutes?
Jesse: I might have welcomed the challenge.

Celine: They enjoy the goal but not the process. But the reality of it is that the true work of improving things is in the little achievements of the day.

Celine: I see it in the people that do the real work, and what’s sad in a way is that the people that are the most giving, hardworking, and capable of making this world better, usually don’t have the ego and ambition to be a leader.

Celine: The concept is absurd. The idea that we can only be complete with another person is evil! Right?

Jesse: Do you believe in, like… ghosts or spirits?
Celine: Uhm, no.
Jesse: No?
Celine: No.
Jesse: Ok, what about reincarnation?
Celine: Not at all.
Jesse: God?
Celine: No.
[Both Laugh]
Celine: That sounds… that sounds terrible. No, no, no. But, at the same time I don’t wanna be one of those people that don’t believe in any kind of magic, you know?
Jesse: So then, astrology.
Celine: Yes, of course!
Jesse: There we go, right!
Celine: I mean, that makes sense, right? You’re a Scorpio, I’m a Sag, so we get along.

Celine: You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

Celine: I was having this awful nightmare that I was 32. And then I woke up and I was 23. So relieved. And then I woke up for real, and I was 32.

Celine: There are so many things I want to do, but I end up doing not much.

Celine: I had this boyfriend of mine many years ago that wanted to be a Buddhist. So he went to Asia to visit some of those monasteries.
Jesse: I’ve thought about doing that too.
Celine: Yeah, you should. I’ll tell you why. He was good-looking, and each time he went to one of the monasteries… a monk offered to suck his cock… true story.
Jesse: It all comes down to that, doesn’t it?
[short pause]
Jesse: Well, I think that’s why l really admire what you’re doing, you know?
Celine: What do you mean? Sucking cock?
[both laugh]
Jesse: Aaah-No…
Celine: No? Wrong answer.
Jesse: No, I was gonna say you’re not detached from life. You’re putting your passion into action.
Celine: Well, I try…

 

  • Hottest State (2005)
Review:
Written and directed by Ethan Hawke, and based on Hawke’s (I presume) autobiographical novel of the same name, The Hottest State is an intensely personal movie. Yet unlike, say, Woody Allen’s autobiographical films (Annie Hall, Stardust Memories, Husbands and Wives), Hawke’s personality doesn’t flood his material. Hawke is quite casual about baring his soul to us, and audiences may not be aware how deeply he takes them into his psyche. But he holds nothing back.

The film recounts a brief, magical love affair between 20-year-old William (Mark Webber), Texas-born living in New York, and Sara (Catalina Sandino Moreno), a beautiful Mexican who has moved to the city to pursue her singing career. The film unfolds with an easy, natural spontaneity that is both engaging and faintly ominous (we know where it’s heading because William informs us in voice-over). Working with his actors and crew, Hawke uses simple, unassuming brush strokes to communicate the joy and misery, and the complexity, of falling in love. William’s trouble is that he has fallen in love with "a force of evil," which is to say, with unfathomable femininity.

The Hottest State shows the futility of romantic desire without ever opting for self-pity or easy cynicism. Hawke imbues the film with the wisdom and acceptance of a broken heart made stronger and freer by the breakage. The film is so faithful to his own experience that it gets at something universal, and cuts all the way to the bone. As a result, it may stir feelings we’d rather not have to deal with, ones we’d hoped we’d put to rest. I don’t think I have ever seen a romantic film that manages to be this painful without being in the least bit sentimental. It’s not so much about the sadness of watching a great love die, but about the horror and incomprehensibility of it.

Although it’s raw and almost nakedly personal, there’s nothing amateurish about the film. Hawke’s handling of his actors is flawless, and just about every scene resonates, rings bells of recognition. In scene after scene, Hawke seems to have got precisely what he was after. His use of the soundtrack (songs by Jesse Harris), free-form editing, overlapping scenes, voice-over, the rich, sensuous colors and his knack for placing the camera just where it needs to be, all is remarkably assured, making this probably the most auspicious debut from a writer-director since Sean Penn’s Indian Runner. The Hottest State is a wonderful film and I felt richer for having seen it; and it deserves a wider audience, because so far as I know it did little business and got Luke-warm notices. Another precious gem in danger of slipping under the radar.

The film is a little soft around the edges. Some of the dialogue (particularly between William and his mother, played by Laura Linney, and in the crucial scene with William’s father, played by Hawke) may be a little too pat. We’re aware of Hawke’s limitations as a writer here, of his putting words into the characters’ mouths instead of letting them speak for themselves (which is the problem with Sara’s last few scenes). But considering what Hawke is attempting here—adapting his own novel, directing it, and playing a key role—it’s an astonishingly assured work.

Like Penn, Hawke has an authentic artistic sensibility, and with any luck he could become a major filmmaker. He’s so confident of getting to the truth of a scene that he achieves poetry without trying, without even a whiff of pretension. The film has a raw honesty to it, and yet it never seems self-indulgent or narcissistic. It’s confessional in the best sense. It’s as if getting these experiences down (in the novel, which I haven’t read, and by making the film) was essential for Hawke’s peace of mind, as if by sharing his pain and confusion with us, he was able to come to terms with the past and reduce its hold over him. As a result, the film has urgency and poignancy, it feels essential, from the heart. I can’t think of another film that conveys the agony of heartbreak and the rite of passage it entails as effectively as this. It has its very own ache.
 

Quotes:
 William Harding: It was Wednesday when we met, Saturday when I asked her to move in, and by Sunday there were flowers in my apartment and hummus in my refrigerator. I don’t remember waking up that Sunday. I don’t think I ever slept. I just sat there thinking, "God damn, this must be what praying is like."
Jesse: [to her son in the diner] Take that gorgeous sexy body outside and move it!… and here, open your present!
Jesse: [to William in the restaurant] A lot of bad shit is gonna happen to you. People are not gonna love you back, and if you’re serious about becoming an artist, that’s the first thing you should learn. And, listen, you’re gonna die, okay? Relatively soon, okay? So, that being said, you have nothing to worry about.
Jesse: [after giving her son new shoes for his birthday] You gotta lose those cowboy boots, William. I worked too hard to get us out of Texas for you to go around in those things.
Jesse: [to William] Your whole life, people are gonna ask you to be weak. They’re gonna practically beg you. But all anyone really wants is for you to be strong.

 

Wahhhh… terlambat

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Tadi pagi, gw emang berangkatnya nge-press banget. Soalnya kemaren sore gw keujanan pas pulang kerja bareng Mb. an. Then, gw mampir lah ke rumahnya berhubung basahhh banget. Dah gitu sekitar jam 8-an gw baru balik. Udah gitu Brooklyn ikut tidur sekitar Subuh, eh dia bangun duluan. Gw baru bangun jam 6.30 (wehhheeehehee!) Salah siapa hayuuu???
Udah gitu pas naik bis, gw liat ada bis yg kenceng banget ambil di jalur lambat. Dan, membatin lah .. pasti ada yg ga’ beres. Emang bener. Ternyata ada truk cabai terguling di tol cikampek Km 14/63.
 
April 10, 2008

Berpikir positif dan rajinlah ber-istighfar

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Minggu-minggu ini yah terutama sejak bulan April, rupanya tidak hanya Amrik saja yg mengalami resesi. Gw juga.. hehehe… secara ekonomi dan spiritual. Ga’ tau ada aja hal-hal duniawi yang membuat emosional gw tidak stabil dan sedikit terguncang *arghhh… drama queen banget sehh*.
Ehm.. Alhamdulillah, secara tidak sengaja, gw mendapat buku self help religi dari atasan gw Pak Sat dan juga membeli buku kecil yang isinya dzikir harian dan ayat-ayat yang musti dihapal untuk berbagai keperluan. Misalnya di awal Ramadan, dalam sholat ‘lebih baik’ klo membaca surat apa de el el. Kemudian sebelum tidur kita harus baca surat apa saja sehingga kita mendapatkan waktu tidur yang berkualitas, karena mengingat isi surat tersebut ’seharusnya loh’ klo kita paham maknanya kita akan lebih damai menjelang tidur, sebab segala sesuatu di dunia ini sudah kita serahkan kepada Allah SWT. Apapun yang akan terjadi saat kita tidur, kita udah pasrah saja pada Nya. Jadi klo sesuatu menimpa kita. Itu semua sudah kehendak Nya. Tidak ada hal yang perlu kita risaukan lagi. Everything beyond our knowledge gitu loh. Jadi, mengingat suasana dunia saat ini sudah semakin ‘aneh’ yang mana sesuatu yang sebetulnya tuh memang benar bisa dianggap hal yang sesat/aneh dsb, sebaiknya kita lebih mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan. Banyak beramal ikhlas, berpikir positif, berbuat baik kepada semua orang, meski susah juga ya klo kudu baik dengan orang yang nyebelin.. untuk itu juga makanya kita harus rajin istighfar klo misalnya ‘kepaksa’ bantu rival kita (hhehehehe,,). Dan tak lupa berdoa agar orang-orang jahat tak tau malu tak tau diuntung itu segera bertaubat dan kembali ke jalan yang benar. Semoga mereka menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik dan mulai sadar akan kesalahannya. Amin. Oiya, mendoakan orang tuh harus berdoa yang baik, TIDAK BOLEH mendoakan hal-hal yang buruk itu namanya mengumpat bukan berdoa. Klo pun merasa ter’siksa’ oleh orang yang kejam pada kita, berdoanya jg harus yang positif, contoh: Ya Tuhan, berikanlah petunjuk kepada dia agar dia sadar bahwa perlakuannya itu sangat menyakiti orang2 disekitarnya, berikan kebaikan padanya. Tunjukkan jalan yang benar. Berikanlah saya kemampuan untuk bersabar dalam menghadapinya. Amin. Yah, somekind of that. Klo agak ga ikhlas, abis itu ya istighfar yang banyak minimal 100x. Insya Allah hari-hari yang akan kita lalui menjadi lebih beda.. lebih enak tuk dilalui, lebih mudah karena tidak ada hal yang ga penting yang musti kita cemaskan lagi. Rugi loh. Selain itu amalan kita tuh ga murni dari amal ibadah kita kepada Allah SWT, tapi juga ada nilai hubungan antar manusia. Meski kita rajin berdoa tapi ‘kerajinan’ kita menyakiti hati orang lain juga sama aktifnya, nah.. nantinya juga akan mempengaruhi jumlah tabungan kita/neraca laba rugi hari akhir. So, untuk itulah kita harus selalu berbuat baik dan rajin beristighfar. Semoga kita menjadi orang yang tidak merugi dan memberi kebaikan bagi lingkungan kita. Amin.
 
April 8, 2008

Sometimes u had to be a little bitchy ..

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Since Apr. 3rd bad conversation between me & him, yah apalagi klo bukan masalah ‘no comment’ itu. Gw ga mau nelpon lagi, males aja, yah sebenernya sih banyak hal yg pengen gw omongin beside that thing, namun .. buat apa gitu loh, nti masalah yg penting jadi tidak dipikirkan lagi olehnya. Kan enggak banget dong buat gue. Seakan ocehan gue tu ga’ ngaruh banget buat mengobarkan semangatnya yang emang kaya bara-bara api di perapian tapi sengaja disiram-siram air terus sama dia. Sebel!!. Kan capek ngipasinnya.. ga’ pernah jadi tukang sate sih. Hasss.. apa seh ini?. Terus, iseng aja gw chatting sama sohibnya kali aja ada sedikit info darinya, soalnya kemaren malem gw nanya apa dia mo dateng ke nikahan sang sohib, namun yeah u guess what?. . ya sms gw ga dibales dong, tapi gw berpikir positif aja karena dah sering mengalami masa-masa ga’ pernah dibales sms gw olehnya.. paling juga pulsa abis ato gengsi dong setelah masa-masa dicuekin itu loh. Hehehe.. bitchy banget deh gw. Ternyat, gw ngerasa malah sohibnya tuh yg agak-agak nge-tes gw, nih rekapan chatting gw:

me: loh ga’ siap2 buat nikah?    kok masi ol?
teman: yee, udah siap tuh, tp msh blm cuti, km dateng lho ma dia, wajib, ga tau gmn caranya,hihi    
me: emg kapan sih?    
teman: tanggal 16 april 2008, jam 10 sampai jam12    
me: kok hr kerja? bingung dech?? tp klo tgl segitu tiket emg murah..hehehe    
teman: ngepasin dgn hitungan jawanya neh, biar sekalian kelar sehari gt , dana minim
me: oh, masih pake itung2an ya
teman: yee,lha iya lah, org jawa ini, emg situ, jawanya dah luntur kena kehidupan metropolis,hihi
me: emg ga niat nikah ma org jawa..(tadinya…sekarang ???), hehe, ibuku ahli ngitung gitu2 dech
teman: ya bagus lah, jgn bikin standar buat calon pendamping, ntar malah ga pernah dapet
me: wah ga bisa, kan anak teknik
teman: gak bakal masuk deh
me: loh, standar kan ada toleransinya jg wee.. ada suaiannya lah istilahnya gitu, klo agak-agak mendekati dikit ya bisa lah, klo bahannya bisa diganti sama material sejenis ya bisalah… fleksibel kok. Klo dana minim, bukannya mahar boleh dicicil?
teman: aq tuh sbnrnya gak suka ma yg namanya utang, tp duit ngepres bgt nih, ga ada yg buat jaga2
me: eh ga kerja?, nti ayammu mati lagi loh    
teman: bos lg meeting & aq lagi blogging, oiya salam buat dia, frennya ga pernah on, gw ga bs hubungi
me: online di starone, nge net mulu, telp aja ke simpatinya suruh aktifin fren nya.. fren minjem hpnya fren    (hehehe garingg)
teman: udah aq sms juga ga di bales, ben wes    
me: paling ga ada pulsa, emg jarang bales sms kok
teman: kasiaaan de lu
me: kynya sih lg stress berat. dia lg ta’suruh fokus ke skripsi, tp malah online terus di blognya, herman dech
teman: arek itu gak bisa dikasar hidupnya gak pernah sulit jd harus pake hati yg lembut
me: well well well…. kena batunya dong    
teman: sampai org lain berenti nyruh dia, maka mulai itu dia bakal jalan..    gw jg heran, dia ga suka under pressure padahal utk sebuah kemajuan, kita kdg hrs berteman dengan pressure
me: tapi klo gw blg terserah, dia malah ngambek
teman: ya jgn blg terserah, tp tetep km perhatiin, cowok tuh sbnrnya sgt suka diperhatiin walaupun kdg cewek jd bingung dan serba salah
me: km aja pantes jd pacarnya    
teman: astaga naga    , ike harus bagaimana boo… amit2 weit zee
me: kadang gw ngerasa over protektif sama dia, terlalu ngejaga perasaannya.. tp malah ga baik buat perkembangan mentalnya
teman: yeee, emg balita    
me: abis boyish banget, childish
temen: ya jgn lah kl persepsimu spt itu ya susah krn cowok lebih suka dianggap dewasa
me: yah sometimes. but boys always be boys tu dah hukum alam kaleeeee. sorry if i’m too cynical. tersinggung ya, km kan cwo    weeekxz    
teman: kl aq nempatin pemikiran yg sama kyk kamu, maka pikirankku jg bakal kyk gt women always be women…    beh..beh..beh.. ga tersinggung, gw terbuka kok orgnya, menghargai pasangan kita sebagaimana kita ingin dihargai, pahami pasangan kita sebagaiamana kita ingin dipahami.. bla..bla.. you know? it’s like mirror teory..
me: jd harganya berapa.. hehehehe… iyaaaaaaaaaaaaa tauuuuuuuuuu, namanya tepo sliro
teman: kl udah tau ya brarti km kudu tepo sliro, sabar.., bersyukur dpt org kayak dia, hihi    
me: hmhmhm…
teman: tp kl doi tetep nyebelin diracun aja… beres    
me: ogahlah
teman: Ntar nyari lagi.. yg gampang di atur,hehe
me: miara gukguk aja, seperti slogan yg gw suka boys will be boys jd ga ngaruh
teman: hihi, dia aja kasih tali..    
me: setujuuuuuuuuu
teman: wiii, arek iki
me: udah ah cape’ nti orangnya biduran, bersin2, demam gara2 kita gosipin, hihi
teman: kecakot-cakot trus sariawan, yo wes kerjo..kerjo..

… tuh kan, seolah dia tuh maksa banget agar gw ‘menelpon dia .. ‘. Ga mempan. Kan gw sedang dalam tahap menyabarkan diri, pati geni. Weleh.. apa pula tuh. Ya intinya ga’ akan kipas-kipasin api lagi biar ketiup sama angin lewat aja, biar nyala ndiri klo dah nyampe titik nyalanya pake cara konveksi natural aja ga usah pake konveksi paksa. Oh berarti dia tuh jenis apa ya?.. ah jadi ngaco. Td malem ibu telpon, kaya’nya seneng banget gw bisa akur ma ade & istrinya. Padahal sih gw kan tidak terlibat dalam pembicaraan yg ekstensif dan eksklusif dengan mereka, bahkan gw ‘agak sedikit’ cuek gituh.. hehehe… andai dia tahu pasti ibu bakalan marah berat sama gw, tidak bisa memanfaatkan waktu untuk bersosialisasi dengan baik & menjadi ‘dewasa’ sebagai kakak. Waks.. terus ibu jg cerita klo sekarang sibuk dengan jambu merah yg over stock, jadi tiap hari minum jus jambu merah, begitu denger gw pilek2 *rambut gw masih basah, males mengeringkan dengan benar, ngantuk jadi main bablas meringkuk di tempat tidur, hasilnya gw pilek* ibu bilang, "wah klo dekat pasti dah dikirimin jus jambu". Hah segitunya yah klo orang tua memikirkan anaknya. Hiks jadi terharu, berhubung capek, gw jadi ga’ sensitif, lagipula pileknya kan karena salah gw yang males, malahan gw yg jadi merasa bersalah jadi buat ibu berpikir gitu. Tadi pagi karena keenakan tidur, nyaris aja telas. Seneng banget pas 7:40. Yah tiap ari gw agak korup gitu deh, tapi biasanya sih, klo pulang gw tambahin waktu jeda 10-15 menit. Biar imbang dan ga korup gitu loh. Nge- blog jg sambil kerja. . . hehehee. I’m happy now, karena dapet lagu superstar nya L Fiasco, nyaris aja ngetik Fiancee.. hell!. Oiya, trus dengerin Celine Dion - taking chances. Nih ya klo kamu baca, gw pengen teriak ke kamu supaya :

" You don’t know about my past, and I don’t have a future figured out.
  And maybe this is going too fast. And maybe it’s not meant to last,

  But what do you say to taking chances, What do you say to jumping off the edge?
  Never knowing if there’s solid ground below. Or hand to hold, or hell to pay, What do you say, What do you say?
 
  I just want to start again, And maybe you could show me how to try, ….
   And I had my heart beaten down, But I always come back for more, yeah.
   There’s nothing like love to pull you up, When you’re laying down on the floor there.
   So talk to me, talk to me, Like lovers do. Yeah walk with me, walk with me, Like lovers do,
  - but you don’t want to talk about it, you just said ‘no comment’ -

   Don’t know much about your life. And I don’t know much about your world. "

Yah gitulah, kamu ga boleh ungkit masa lalu gw dan saat ini gw ga pengen buat ngeracunin kamu tuk OK - OK saja, mungkin gw terlalu cepet & sering maksa kamu. Apapun yg gw rasa penting bagimu enggak penting banget kan. Gimana yg paling ga penting buat gw? Pasti itu cuman debu aja, klo debu emas berharga juga lah!. Atom nuklir aja si uranium itu jg se-cuprit tapi klo mengalami reaksi atom. Mabok juga umat sedunia inih. Loh kok gw jg sok scientist banget?.  Yah, gw cuman pengen kamu segera sadar, dan memulai yg sudah seharusnya.. ga’ tau juga apa kamu sengaja ngerahasiain ini semua trus nti kasih suprise ke gw???.. kok tanda tanya banget???… Yah klo ada pertanda lain yang buat gw sangat menyebalkan, gw pastinya yah terpukul lah. seperti seorang peramal tarot yg meramalkan anaknya kemudian membuka kartu fool.. ya seperti itu perasaan gw. . gw emang ga mengerti & memahami dirimu. Cowo’ tuh GAK BOLEH kaya’ gitu… emosional banget sih lo??? too sentimentil too sensitive waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhggggghhhhh… ya gw udah nyadar begini resiko bersama dengan kepiting… rasanya lebih parah daripada pacaran sama cwe (secara dia cwo namun lebih ribet dari cwe…) hohooohoooo. Untung gw jg dah dapet lagu She’s the one  - Robbie Williams, jadinya yah gw menghibur diri aja dengan segala kenarsisan gw. I’m still the one for you,  rasain deh!!!. Klo pun enggak… Gw kan narsis. Ga ada kata enggak buat gw. Hahahhaa..

    

April 7, 2008

Show show dan show. Mickey Mouse Amazing Journey & SUM41

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Mickey Minnie Amazing Journey
Original Productions

26 April - 2 Mei 2008 Istora Senayan, Jakarta
Ingin menyaksikan Mickey dan Minnie Mouse, Peterpan, Little Mermaid, Lion King, Lilo & Stitch serta 101 Dalmatians langsung? Inilah saatnya! Disney On ice Amazing Journey 2008 yang akan digelar pada 26, 27, 29, 30 April dan 1, 2 Mei 2008 di Istora Senayan, Jakarta.
Nah, jangan sampai ketinggalan, ajak teman dan keluarga sebanyak-banyaknya! Beli tiketnya di sini!
Tiket: (ini untuk hari rabu, 30/04/2008)
Show I : 15:30 WIB & Show II : 19:30 WIB
Platinum : Rp. 450.000*
Gold : Rp 300.000
Silver : Rp. 200.000
Tribun : Rp. 100.000
*Seating Number (contact Tina/Rini di 021 79411 77 ext. 252-251 atau direct 021 794 44 73)

Sabtu, 3 Mei 2008
Tennis Indoor Senayan, Jakarta
20.00 WIB

SUM 41, band yang beraliran Punk, akan menggelar konsernya di Jakarta pada 3 Mei 2008 di Tennis Indoor Senayan.
Saat konser nanti, Band asal Ontario, Kanada ini akan digawangi oleh Deryck Whibley (penulis lagu, vokalis, dan gitaris), Steve Jocz (drummer) dan Jason Mc Caslin (bass).
Nah tunggu apalagi, segera beli tiketnya di sini sebelum kehabisan!
Tiket: Festival Rp 450.000 atau Tribune Rp 350.000
 

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